My One and Only Love

I am learning that the Lord is my strength. Without the Lord I am nothing. I am starting to come into my skin. I am starting to love who I am and what I have. This doesn't mean I am trying to be complacent in my life, but to continue to strive to be the best me and more like Christ.
As a women, I go through my ups and downs about my looks, body size, and my moods, poor Nate. Lucky I have a husband who accepts me for me. Never in my life, have I had someone who accepts me for who I truly am. Nate knows who I am and still loves me. He often says that he learned who I "truly" am the day we got back from our honeymoon. I think that it took me so long to be "me" because in the past who I am or was had never been "good enough" or "right".
I am very thankful to be married to Nate. Our relationship isn't perfect, but it doesn't have to be. I heard a quote the other day that said, "Marriage isn't about marrying the 'perfect' person, but about being the perfect person". This quote is so true. There is no "ideal" relationship, besides "Adam and Eve's".
I just want to say this, "I love you Nate, through thick and thin. Thank you for being supportive, teaching me to relax, teaching me to laugh at life, and teaching me about me. I love you forever."

MOMMY ME

Parker had his 1st birthday. He is growing up so fast. He is adorable, but I am his mother. He is doing a bunch of new things and has lots of favorites. He loves:
1. Mommy: he is all about me, I can't even walk out of the room without him crying
2. Food: he always makes the "mmmmm" sound while eating
3. Being out and about; he loves people
4. "Yo Gabba, Gabba "
5. Balls (he got a bounce ball place house for Christmas)
6. Music (he dances every time music comes on)
7. He loves books
8. And loves DOGS
9. Sleep: I have him on a schedule and it works great for him and me.......
10. PAPA (he is all about my dad)
11. Walking around furniture (he isn't walking yet)
12. Being SOOOOOOO active (he will never be a FAT KID lol)

He is a wonderful kid. He is getting his 1 year old molars right now, and it is hurting him so bad. Poor kid, I can't imagine getting teeth. Ouch! I pray for this little one daily, for he is God's and I blessed to raise him. There is so much responsibility in being a parent, I mean so, so much. I need to be responsible in teaching him right from wrong, the ways of the Lord's, how to treat others, how to love, be graceful, be wise, and be truthful. I know he will not be perfect, but I know I am responsible for who he is (up to a point). I love being a mommy, his mommy. This kid can sure make me smile like no other.
Now, having a kid has left me tired, fuller in size, and gives me less time for me. I should work out but I have no desire lol. I want to be a good mom that doesn't leave my kid with different people every night. I am his mommy and he is my responsibility (I choose not to pond my kid off on others to be selfish). With that said, I have less time for friends, but those that are good friends understand my family comes first. I don't really have the desire to party, club, dress sexy, drink until drunk, and act single. Those days are long gone, they were good while they lasted, but everything has an end. Making these choices has left some friendship of mine in the past too. It is sad, but life is like that. People change, friends change, and life changes. It's hard to swallow, but being a grown-up I have to deal with it. No one ever said growing up is easy. I love those friends who I still call friends. I am blessed by so many of you who are traveling down the same path as me. Those that see life for what it is, beyond money, materials, and looks. Family is what it is all about. LOVE & GOD.

With all this said, I say good-bye to my 20's and hello 30's.....I know who I am and I am okay that this is where I am. I love all God has blessed me with. I am blessed. Life is so precious..........I am enjoying every minute.