I love all seasons, especially when decorations are involved. So happy to be able to celebrate the FALL SEASON 2011 with my lil family. Parker loved the pumpkins at the pumpkin patch, which we careved last night. He for sure tried to eat his "baby" pumpkin. Parker is turning 11 months this week. He is crawling, army style, and now and then regular.  He has 6 teeth, says many things (favorites are "ball" and "dog"), loves solids, and is happy as can be. He is non-stop, and keeps us all busy, while he is awake. He sleeps well at night, and during the day. He is learning, well we are trying to teach him, what "no" means. He is so special and I do not think that Nate and I can love anyone as much as we love Parker. We pray that Parker grows to be a man of God, which I am praying that God gives us wisdom to raise him in His eyes. Basically, we are blessed and happy. Thank you everyone who supports us and loves us.

Looking Back

I often take a look back and remember what my life was like before a husband and before a kid. I remember the nights dancing in L.A.. The nights staying out with the girls and just being young and free. I remember the time of just caring about the then and now. Worrying about nothing. Letting life take a hold of me and just going. I remember going to college and staying up all hours to have fun, study, and just get into trouble. I remember when my life was just about "having fun". But then, I would take a look back and also remember wanting more. The fun I was having was fun, but was just that. Nothing deeper, nothing lasting.
Now my life is WAY different. I for sure do not have the types of night I used to have. I do not get to hang out with friends like I once did, or as often. I now have worries, concerns, and plans. A life that drifted with the wind is now solidly placed. The night times are now spent with my son; feeding, playing, bathing, and rocking to sleep. The sleepless nights are now replaced with a bedtime schedule/routine. The thing is, I look back on what once was, and smile. That season of my life got me to where I am today,and makes me a better person today.
There is nothing better than coming home to my husband and my child. When I forget this, I close my eyes and remember. I remember Parker's smile. I remember Nate's humor. I feel this joy, that God has placed in my heart. I do miss being young and free, at times, but I would not trade my life for anything. All the responsibilities, concerns, worries, and structure could never make me forget that I have been blessed with the most amazing little boy and a husband.
The week nights at home, the weekends with family......this is my life. It's different now, but there is nothing in this world that fills me up more than this. Nothing in the world that gives me this sense of purpose. Nothing that gives me a feeling of being complete, whole.
Life is different, but a good different. Those that where apart of my younger, more carefree days, thank you for the best times. Those that are on the path I am on now, thank you for loving me, all of me (Parker, Nate, and me). Here is to enjoying where life has me.....the best place I can think of.