God Make Me Whole Again!

I have to be honest and say that in this past year of adjusting to being married, being pregnant, and having a baby, that my relationship with the Lord has not been at its strongest. Recently, I had been feeling a void in my life, which I am well aware of what that is. I have recently gone back to what I "know" makes me "whole" again (Jesus). I am go to church, even though it is hard to focus with Parker. I know, we can put him in childcare, but I do not want to. Sure, to you this might sound "crazy", but to me it is not. My child is in "childcare" Monday-Friday, since I work. I love being around Parker so anytime I can get with him I try and get it. Anyhow, I go to church but that isn't enough. Yeah I pray, but I realized my prayer life was weak. I have been, as of this week, praying more, reading inspirational quotes & Bible verses, as well as reading devotionals. I feel, this week, so "joyful". I have the joy in my heart that only a person that has a personal relationship with the Lord would or could "understand". I am feeling good. I feel like I am becoming ME again. Next week I turn the big 3-0! I want to make sure that my 30's are good years. I want to be the mommy, wife, daughter, sister, and friend that I know I could be. The only way I can be all that I am truly is by focusing on God. So, I am telling myself SHAPE UP and FOCUS. When I keep my focus on above my life has more joy and peace.
Other than that, life is going well. Parker is amazing. He is rolling over, blowing raspberries, and holding onto everything. He is a good kid. He sleeps about 10-11 hours a night. He loves sleep, which is a HUGE blessing for this working mommy. He is such a happy baby. He is my greatest gift. He loves mommy so much. He has my heart. Nate and I feel so blessed to be his parents. We really want to be the parents God wants us to be for Parker. One of my favorite things to do with Parker is to breastfeed him. There is something about it that melts my heart. I am so thankful that I am able to do this with Parker. Parker's favorite thing is taking baths. He loves water, so far, and loves to play that games we do during bath time. He also likes it when you talk with him and sing. He likes people and loves attention. The problem is that he does not know how to be alone. I blame his cousin Reese. =) She loves him and can't get enough of him. She is always talking to him. She is wonderful with him. She will make an excellent mommy one day. I am so thankful for my family, who helps in raising my child. I have an amazing mom who cares for my child while I am a work. I have no idea where I would be without her help and support. My parents have been there for Nate and I. My parents are my big blessing. I do not know what I would do without them. Nate, Parker, and I are so lucky to have the support they give us on a daily bases. HAPPY EARTH DAY & EASTER!
Below is a glimpse of my world!