Being a new mommy is exciting, wonderful, and scary. I have never done this before and I so badly don't want to mess this up, yup I am a perfectionist at times. I love reading all about how to breastfeed, growths, sleep, schedules, and such. There is so much information that I am taking it all in but putting my little twist on it. I decide how I want to be a mommy; along with God's guidance I am sure I will be fine.
I recently went back to work. My mom watches Parker, which is a blessing because I cannot imagine anyone else watching my son. I try not to worry about how much he eats and/or sleeps, but of course I will and I do. My mom raised me and now look at me, lol.
As a mommy, my mind is always on what I need to get done. I know I need to relax, but how can I when there is so much to do? I realized, recently, that I need to ask for help because there are people, like my husband, that wants to help. All I need to do is ask. Why is it so hard for me to ask for help? Is that normal?
Parker is starting to sleep through the nights, anywhere from 5-7 1/2 hours. He is healthy and amazing. He can roll over, smile, laugh, and is cooing. He is trying to grip the bottle and hold it but he has a ways to go. He is about 12 pounds now and 24 inches....he is not small but not big, so the doctor says.
My favorite things to do with Parker is to hold him, kiss on him, and let him fall asleep on my chest. When he smiles or laughs at me I melt. I love when he coos because it's our way of communicating with each other.
I am a happy momma. I love my son. I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful child. God trust me with him so it is my responsibilty to raise him like Christ wants me to. So I will try my best. I want to start a Mommy Prayer Group. I pray other moms will want to get together once a month and pray for our babies/children. Lets see who wants to join?
All in all life is about learning and adjusting, and that is what we are doing. =)
Kelly Brandt
